Showers.

Hello world! I seem to have fallen off your face, but I have returned!

For the past 4 months I have been overtaken with the load of the Spring musical, Thoroughly Modern Millie.  I have ignored family, friends, society, homework, food, and I think the hardest hit was sleep. For nearly 120 days, the group of us cast in the musical have been through dance rehearsals, music rehearsals, blocking rehearsals, dress rehearsals, cue-to-cues, and 4 unforgettable performances, probably estimating somewhere around 300+ hours.  The outcome was absolutely 98% worth it.  I firmly believe, though I have been assured otherwise by the director, that some of the stress might have been avoided with better planning and organization.  However, that was not the case, and in the circumstances, I really enjoyed the entire process.  I haven't been in a musical in about 4 years and I forgot how much I missed it.  Anyway, I'm back into the swing, and I am happy to be done with Millie, so that I might be able to recover this semester.

In other news, I have made a new friend.  His name is Jimmy, and I really, really like him.  I guess you might say he is slightly more than a friend, but I'm taking it slowly and just seeing where things go.  I hope it turns out well and I will keep you posted.

As the last few weeks of school approach, I am now loaded with school work. Mainly music and lines to memorize, scenes to rehearse and a paper to write.  Some design projects, some real final exams to study for and a couple dances.  Overall, I think it won't be a quarter of the time or effort that needed to be invested into Millie, but none-the-less, a ton of work.  So its time to hit the ground running and finish the semester strong.

For the Summer, I have no idea what I want to do.  Ideally, I would LOVE to go back to Cheerio, or find somewhere else I can escape to. I've thought about going back up north for the summer.  Finding a summer job up there, and just working. It would be such a nice change from being down here for so long.  There is just one, potentially large, problem.  There is a strong, and by strong I mean almost definite possibility I won't come back.  After being away for so long, being so homesick, and then going back for 3 months? I don't care how many friends I have or how much I love my school, I will NOT want to come back, I know that as I am simply thinking about it.  I would like to do something that is fun. Perhaps something new.  Lifeguarding again is something I would do in a heartbeat, I love it. But if I can find something else, that is fun, the times are the same, or manageable, and it's something I wouldn't mind doing all summer, and potentially longer, than great.  There is a bakery that is on Main St. and I am going to go there tomorrow to see if they need any help with anything, not just decorating.  I would LOVE to be able to get into that, but I know that takes a lot of experience, practice, and references.  We'll see!!

I am really going to try to write a new post every few days, or at lease every week.  I should have been doing it through my struggles with Millie.  It might have saved me a few sleepless nights.

Here's the stumble :) :

http://www.stumbleupon.com/su/2w6t4l/soulhiker.com/2009/10/reboot-your-life-20-mental-barriers-you-should-let-go-off/

A little bit of inspiration for everyone.

Bon soir,
-R

Roses can be any color and Violets are Violet

I've been mulling over that title for a few days now, and it still makes me chuckle :)

A grand multitude of things have happened since I last posted.  I seem to not have time to breathe, and there are some things that I have to sacrifice.  I last posted the day that classes started. Or something to that effect.  I am, number one, taking 25 or so credits. Two, I have rehearsal for the musical I'm in (Thoroughly Modern Millie) every day, save Friday and Saturday, until around 10 pm and soon I will have things to do from being Props Master for the same show. Three, I have a job, four- an internship twice a week, five- choir rehearsal 3 times a week, six- rehearsal for the OTHER musical medley that I'm in once every 2 weeks, and seven- homework.  In that I still seem to have time to work out almost every day, keep my grades above failing, and who am I kidding. I didn't have a social life BEFORE I had a hundred things to do everyday. :) Anyway. I seem to be handling it pretty well.  I haven't had a nervous break down yet, and I haven't been crabby at anyone! That sounds like success to me.

I feel like I had a thousand things to talk about but as soon as I started writing they all drifted away to the land of the lost thoughts, odd socks and remote controllers.

Something random I would like to put down- baby names.  I really enjoy having my name be somewhat obscure and different.  I think its still pretty and not something my parents should be slapped for, but its odd and different.  I would like to keep that tradition going in my family. Whenever I start one.  :)  Some of the baby names I have found, written down, and LOVED are as follows:

Girls:                                                                              Boys:
Elyse                                                                              Briggs
Daveney                                                                        Porter
Astor                                                                              Silas
Troian                                                                            Brennan
Hialeah                                                                          Shea
Elizabeth (not that odd, but I love it)
MacKenzie (pretty common too, but a fave)
Audrah

Recently added: 

Darby                                                                            Pritchard
Weiss                                                                            Kylar
Sabie/Sabia/Sabrilyn
Meliana/Merla/Melanora
Scarlanna
Seannah
Roxwell/Roswell
Hannon
Ellis

I really like all of those names. I would be happy if any of my children were named something from that list.  Everyone tells me Porter is a really preppy name, but I love it!!  If you have any suggestions for cool names like that, I'm more than open for suggestions.  If I want 8 kids, I have to have some sort of options! :D

I think the rest of my ideas for this post had something to do with Valentines Day... Which I LOVE, in spite of the fact that with the exception of one year, I've never really had anyone to spend it with. But mannnn, was that a good one :D  I'll write about V-Day some other time.. this post is a work in progress, but feel free to entertain yourselves with the others :P lol


Okay, well I have to get up early, Goodnight all!!

-R

I'm sure TONS of you have seen this site before, but I think its HYSTERICAL! :) Enjoy!

http://theoatmeal.com/

"To read a poem in January is as lovely as to go for a walk in June."

Before I start.. I have a disclaimer: If you haven't picked up by now, this blog gets personal.  Nothing gross, or that I wouldn't want people to know, otherwise I wouldn't post it for the entire world to see. Please don't judge me, assume the worst of me, or think I feel sorry for myself.  This is a diary style blog that you all get the pleasure of reading. :) 

Have a problem with that? Don't read it. 

Happy New Year everyone :)

I have decided 2011 is a year for me to do something.  It is the first year in the third decade of my life, and aside from being absolutely terrifying, that strikes a nerve with me.  I feel that I have nothing to show for my nearly 21 years on this Earth and by God, I am going to change it.  

Number one: School

I have NEVER done well in school.  With perhaps the exception of pre-school and kindergarten.  For something that shapes the entire rest of my life, I don't care that much about it.  I suppose I shouldn't say that.. It isn't that I don't care at all, but I don't seem to care enough or in the right way.  Mediocre sometimes barely passing grades have done nothing for me but stress me out and get me in more trouble down the line than the slacking off was worth, but yet year after year the C's and D's roll in with ease.  I HATE having to lie about knowing my GPA or what grade I got in what class or what test just because I'm ashamed.  Whether my poor school work ethic is due to undiagnosed learning disability, parents that passed on their lack of regard for my education or pure lack of motivation, I'm going to change it.  Every single day I am going to tell myself to do what needs to be done, before doing what I want to do. If I have to staple a post-it to my forehead, its going to happen. :)

Number two: Service

My whole life I have always done something in the community, volunteering of some sort, and I have always loved every minute of it.  Helping other people, even by doing the smallest things, makes me feel good about myself.  Since I moved to North Carolina, I haven't gotten the opportunity to do too much in the community yet.  I do belong to one of the church choirs near my school.  They love having me there, and for that (though not the ONLY reason), I love being there.  I have had this pipe dream of going to an elementary school somewhere nearby and doing something with the little ones and music.  Feeding my love for children, music, teaching, and maybe helping the next musical legend find some inspiration.  Optimistic, I know, but you NEVER know who you interact with everyday, and who they are or may turn out to be, why not do something that may feed that and inadvertently change the world.

Alright enough philosophy... :)

So whether it be volunteering at a food bank, school, with a sports team, whatever, I want to do it. Even if it is one or two days a week, no one is going to complain that I'm offering too little of my own time to help other people, they will be eternally grateful for whatever they are given.

Number three: Personal

If I can't take care of myself, I am no good to anyone.  I need to make sure that I take care of me and what I need to do, mentally, emotionally, physically and spiritually.  I am not going to let anyone else dictate my life or what I do with it.  It is no one's life but mine, and if I let other people live it for me now, it is only going to be me in the end that ends up disappointed.  I am going to make sure that I am the most important person to me.  I am the only person I live my entire life with and I want to make sure I like that person.  Other people aren't going to like me if I don't like myself.  

Which bring me to

Number four: Love

I have been single for 1 year, 11 months and 2 days. I'm not a super crazy person, the math just wasn't that hard to figure out on the spot.  :)  But seriously, I am getting absolutely sick and tired of it.  I feel like I may be sounding a little selfish when I ask for the possibly non-existent true love, and that I want it now.  That is not at all what I am asking for, though that would be great, thats not what I want.  I am simply looking for someone that I can have a good time with for a while.  Someone that cares about me, that I care about in return, perhaps even love, and to gain a relationship, friendship or otherwise, that can last a lifetime.  Making friends in general is hard for me, and trying to get someone to fall in love with me is damn near impossible.  I don't necessarily believe in one-on-one soul-mates, because honestly the odds of me finding the ONE person in a crowd of 6-7 billion that was created especially for me, is a little bit of a stretch, even for me.  I think that there are many people, an infinite amount maybe, that you could be compatible with.  Depending on where you are in your own life when you meet this person, dictates how your relationship will develop, be it in the favor of love or not.  

Story time:

    In August of 2007, I went to Ireland.  On the ferry between Galway and Inis Oirr, we had rocks (that we were instructed to chose earlier in the morning and carry with us) that we were going to throw into the Ocean.  We were to write something on the rock, and not share it with anyone, and huck it over the side of the boat to plummet to the bottom of the North Atlantic.  I wrote something on it that meant a lot to me.  Something that I promised I was going to do for myself, to improve my general quality of life.  I am not going to share what it was.  It must remain where it is now and will be until the end of the Earth: at the bottom of the North Atlantic.  This is my quasi-rock. I am re-writing my vow on said rock and tossing it into the Ocean. 

I am doing this again because in 2007, one month later I met the love of my life :)

I hope that I can find someone that loves me, genuinely and whole-heartedly.  Sooner rather than later would be preferable, but I can be patient :)  

I have bored you enough for this evening... er. morning :)  I have a lot more to talk about- Winter break! So I will probably be posting again tomorrow... er. later. 

Bon Soir, 

-R

No stumble guys, too tired! <3

It's the most WONDERFUL time of the year.

This is so true...

There is nothing I love more than Christmas!  The red and green, lights everywhere, stressed out parents and candy canes.  One of my absolute favorite things about Christmas (other than the whole REASON for Christmas) is the candy cane. Red and white striped delicious pepperminty treats. No holiday season is complete without them.  Of course NOW-a-days you can get candy canes in any size, color, or flavor your heart desires, and I think it is fantastic. :)

My house was invaded by even MORE of my family, bringing the total people count to 9 and pet count to 4.  Adding my crutch-yielding Aunt, ADHD cousin and 2 dogs is a blessing and a curse.  We love them dearly, but certainly in small doses :) Sharing a room with my 17 year old BOY cousin was not the highlight of my week, but it was fun I have to admit.  We are very close; like brother and sister, and I haven't seen him in over a year.  It was slightly stressful having them here, but I will certainly miss then when they're gone.

My friend..who was perhaps not going to be home for Thanksgiving, did in fact make it back. On the 24th (of November).  I am so unbelievably glad to have him home.  I have missed him a lot.  I think its time I tell some of our story :)

          His name is Nick.  He is 22.  He is in the United States Marine Corps and I could not be more proud of him. :) He has sacrificed everything and served in Japan, Korea and Afghanistan.  I met him 1 year ago on New Years Day at a family New Years party of his.  (I knew his family cause I was friends with his brother and his brother's girlfriend).  I had met all of his immediate family, except him at this point.  I thought we hit it off really well, and we had a really fun night :)  He was home on leave for the holidays and would be going back to Japan on the 16th of January.  I didn't really want to think about it, so I just had fun for a couple of weeks.  I ended up really starting to like him a lot, even though I knew it was probably not the best of ideas.  He left for Japan, which was very sad, but he told me not to worry.  In the next couple weeks I tried to go back to normal.  Get to know new people at school, make friends, and even try to date.  It didn't work, and I didn't feel right about it.  I was interested in someone else and thats it.  Over the next 11 months and 8 days, we talked, fought, didn't talk, and made up.  I feel that he is one of the most genuine people I've ever met and I adore him.  There are personal reservations and emotional and physical obstacles for both of us, that are keeping us from being together and seeing each other perhaps as much as we might like.  All we can do is cherish the time we DO have together and live each day to the fullest.  No one knows what will happen and when it will happen, but I truly believe everything will work out in the end and it will be for the best.  No matter what happens, he means so much to me and will always have a place in my mind and in my heart :)

Whew.. Well theres my little philosophical rant for the day :)  I do hope that he is safe in everything he does.  He is a wonderful person.

BACK TO CHRISTMAS!

I love the Christmas spirit as much, and probably more than the next person, but something Christmas would not be complete without; PRESENTS!  Christmas has never been extravagant, expensive or in other words big, in my house, but everyone has always gotten something. Usually FROM everyone, and it is a token of our appreciation and love for one another.  There has only been one thing I've asked for for the past 2 years, and I finally got it.  A Casio WK-200 76 key keyboard.  I am a voice major, and taking piano lessons and I have had nowhere to practice or let my creative juices flow.  It was such a shock and a surprise and I am so happy with it.  I didn't get much else; some Nemo paraphernalia and gadgets here and there, but honestly, I am 100% content with my keyboard as essentially my only gift.  It is perfect.

As of now, it is 2 am and my cousin rolled over and punched me. :) I think I am going to go to bed, and I  will post again tomorrow. Hopefully :)

Goodnight all, I hope Santa blessed you greatly :)

-R

A site that I really love.. It has inspired me to tell people things about myself that normally I would hide.  I started with people that already like and love me, so we'll see how the rest of that journey goes.  I hope this does something for you too :)

http://www.postsecret.com/

Thanksgiving!

T-minus 6 days until thanksgiving :)  I hope everyone gets to be with their families and loved ones this holiday.  I know someone that I wish was here, might not be home for thanksgiving, but will be very soon after.  I can't wait for him to be home; I have missed him so much.  :D

With Thanksgiving comes Christmas, (36 days) and with Christmas- besides being the best time of the year- comes exams.  I know that I feel like there is not a whole lot to do, but so much I need to do at the same time.  I hate this feeling; it causes stress.  I always feel so unprepared and yet in the long run it turns out that I was perfectly fine and had nothing to worry about, but none-the-less; stress.

(This post was put on hold due to exams and the holidays :])

I did just fine on all of my exams, and I had a pretty substantial GPA this semester. Not completely proud of it, but satisfied :)

I hope everyone had a wonderful Thanksgiving holiday. I know I did!

-R


I've always thought these were SO COOL. Go ahead. Try it and let me know how they turn out. :)

http://www.stumbleupon.com/su/1S28rf/www.instructables.com/id/How-to-make-belts-and-bracelets-out-of-soda-pop-ta/

It's the Great Pumpkin Charlie Brown!

Happy almost Halloween everyone!!

Fish, Bo, and being happy :)

So, I woke up this morning, to find my sister in my bed with me. I'm not sure why she would chose MY room of all of them..since my room is approximately 30 degrees colder than the rest of the house. Regardless, she was making it uncomfortable for me to sleep, so I think thats why I woke up. I love my sister so it was fun to have a morning sleep over, but startling to find her there.  So I turned over and I saw that my fish was DEAD!!! I hollered at my sister, who was already awake, "PICKLES IS DEAD! Wahhh.." She was not very empathetic, she actually laughed at me, like she always does when I'm being silly.  However, I was very distraught! You see, this fish, Pickles, he was not MY fish.  I killed my fish in the first 2 days.  This was my friends fish whom I was caring for.  This made me even sadder cause I was really trying to take care of him, and while he DID live for over 3 weeks, I am very sad that he is dead.  RIP Pickles. 

This is Pickles <3

If anyone is wondering why is name was Pickles, just ask me about it and I'll share the story :D

The celebrity love of my life, (actually second, only to Zachary Quinto) came out with a new album and Comedy Central special a couple of days ago.  Mr. Robert Burnham.. Or Bo <3  His second album is called "Words, words, words" which yes, is a Hamlet reference. Very good. I personally, think Bo is HI-larious and smart and cute and he can sing (which is a VERY good thing) and even though he is about 5 months younger than me, I would take him any day...

And.. moving on.  I LOVE the new album.  After his first self-titled album, I honestly thought he was going to have a hard time coming up with new material.  Not saying that his stuff wasn't funny, but that he possibly covered everything there was to cover in the world and make fun of it.  Bo, you have proved me wrong.  The album is FANTASTIC and if anyone hasn't already bought it, or doesn't even know who Bo Burnham is, I highly suggest you buy this album. And his first one.  His humor is a little crude, but thats the sense of humor I have.  I do NOT get offended easily and I laugh at everything :)  Therefore, I think the whole album is incredibly funny and VERY clever.  It is filled with puns, plays-on-words, misdirections and outright cracks. I can go on and on about how much I like it and how funny I think it is, but I suggest you buy it and see for yourself. :)

To address the third matter in the title of the post, lately, I have been extremely happy.  I'm not quite sure why. Though I do have an idea ;)  I have some plans this coming week and I am really looking forward to them.  I can play out how I think it will go a thousand times in my head, and I will still have no idea whats going to happen.  So, with that, I may or may not write about it. ;)

Another reason I'm really happy, is that I get to start redecorating my room pretty soon! After Nov. 1st. I am buying paint, and I am painting my room and the furniture that I have.. Aka.. a desk, headboard and a dresser-pretty soon.  I am very happy because right now, there are 2 puke orange walls, 1 white wall, and the other is a blown up picture of a minor league baseball game from approximately 1986-1994. I have NO idea who the teams are and it is an atrocity.  I am painting my room a dark aqua color and everything else is black, with white accessories.  Its going to be a city/New York and Paris themed room.  It might sound weird.. but trust me. I have a vision. ;)  When its done, of COURSE I will post pictures :)


I am still trying to figure this whole blogging thing, so bear with me.  If theres anything you would like me to write about, a story perhaps. My opinion on something, anything really, just let me know and I will be happy to oblige.  


I have decided to do two things with this closing of my blogs; have something that I find off Stumble right at that VERY moment, and have a "signature" of sorts, that will give you all the information you need to stalk me! Wonderful. If anyone (including the lovely Annie Green) reads this, thank you, and I apologize I am not more entertaining :)


Stumble of the Day:

HAHA thats cute! <3


Thanks!
-R




Rochelle Cady
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Just Starting Out.

I've never really had a blog before; I've had plenty of notebooks that I've written my thoughts in and vented profusely, but never posted them for the world to see. Theres something comforting yet unnerving about that; having all of my feelings on display is cathartic for the reason that I get to let it all out, and not keep it bottled up inside like I normally do, yet I don't want to be judged for my thoughts and opinions.

I guess we'll see how it goes. :)

I think this blog will be a collection of me sharing things I find that I think are cool, and have no one else to share them with and me venting about something/someone. I predict the latter to be the more common. :)

Just as a background- if people are reading this that don't really know me- I'll tell you a little bit about myself.

I am Rochelle. Pretty basic. I am 20 years old, 21 in March. I live in North Carolina, and I've lived here for a little over a year. I lived in Connecticut for the first 19. I have 4 half sisters, only 3 of them I grew up with.  I have a mother and a father; the mother role is up for election this year. I miss my dad very much. After my parents split up, he moved back to Rhode Island and we stayed in Connecticut until we moved to North Carolina.

Moving on. I go to High Point University, and I am a second semester Sophomore.  I did quite poorly in high school, didn't get into HPU on my first application, went to community college for a semester and transferred in.  I am a double major in Voice Performance and Theater Performance, and I wouldn't change the people in the department or my choice of career for anything in the world.  I was an Interior Design major for a semester, and I hated it. Which is unfortunate because I love architecture and drafting and design.  Switching majors was one of the best decisions I could have ever made. With music and theater, after I graduate from High Point, I want to go into Musical Theater.  I have a lot of ideas between New York, Boston, Providence and even Scotland.  I DO want to go to graduate school, and there are schools at each of these locations I would be honored to attend for my Masters.

The ultimate goal is Broadway.  I came to this decision when I switched majors. One of my cousins, is a musician.  He was accepted into Berklee School of Music, and left halfway through his first semester for a record deal of sorts.  He is doing very well, having so far appeared on TV, and as the singer of the theme song for the TV game show "Minute to Win it." (Be jealous). He has worked with people such as Kara Dioguardi, and Blake Lewis (runner-up to Jordan Sparks in American Idol).  Now I'm just bragging about him.. The point is, he is very successful in his choice of career and is only a year older than I am.  I was CONSTANTLY hearing about how well he was doing, and how proud the family is of him and I was jealous.  As an Interior Design major, you don't get too much claim-to-fame or family bragging rights.

So logically, the only choice was to pursue the irrational dream of being on Broadway.  I honestly, have a lot of confidence in the fact that I will make it to Broadway. Someday. I feel that I have made a lot of friends and know enough people that I can catch a break.  My goal is not to be the lead in a hit Broadway musical. However, that wouldn't be too shabby. :)  I am simply setting the goal of being able to walk out onto a Broadway stage and perform.

Anyway.. This had always been a dream of mine, but I never took it seriously, I always was more practical and looked at things realistically.  When I decided that I wanted to switch majors, I was trying to think of what to get into.  I thought to myself, what have I always seen people do or be involved with and said to myself, "I wish I could do that" or "That seems like it would be a lot of fun." So, I switched to Music.  Later on, I added Theater.  I have ALWAYS loved to sing; whether I told people or not.  I decided to stop being afraid of being laughed at or judged and I took myself and my music career seriously, and it has been the best decision of my life. I have had so many once-in-a-lifetime opportunities available to me, and so many good things come out of it, that I can't help believe that it was meant to be.

I am a VERY optimistic person. To the point where I can be delusional about things sometimes.  I can convince myself that things are going well, when I am missing the facts and things that are right in front of my eyes.  This goes along with relationships too.

I have NEVER, with the exception of once, had any luck with relationships.  Sure, there have been guys that I've dated for a while; a few weeks or months at best.  But never anything really serious.  Only once, have I had a serious relationship. His name was Michael and so far, he was the love of my life.  I had every intention and belief that I was going to spend the rest of my life with him.  I could talk for hours about our relationship. But maybe another day.  Needless to say, the relationship ended. I was 18.  I met Michael when I was 16 at my job, and I had a crush on him for nearly 2 years before we started dating and we dated for a year and half and then he broke it off.  Again, I could discuss this forever, but I'll save it for another time.  Seeing as how I didn't really have to try with Michael, getting back in the game has been nearly impossible.  I have not had a single, even one week, boyfriend since we broke up and its starting to get annoying.  I have tried everything and nothing seems to be working. Every time I start to like a guy, they don't feel the same way, or they just want to be friends.

However, it seems that my luck is changing.  It just so happens that I have met someone that I go to school with and I am starting to like this person quite a bit.  We have been talking and hanging out some, and I have been ULTRA careful not to mess anything up, and I think its working :)  It feels really nice to meet someone and possibly be able to spend time with someone that truly likes me and wants to spend time with me too.  We shall see how things go! Don't worry, I will post a lot more about him.

So this turned out to be significantly longer than I had anticipated, and turned out to be just what I thought it would; me ranting and raving and venting about one thing or another. :)  I doubt people will read the whole thing, but if you do, I apologize I am not more entertaining.  I will hopefully come up with some more interesting ideas for blogs, and post some really cool things that I want people to know about.  Thanks for reading if you did.  If theres anything you would LIKE me to post about, let me know and I would be happy to oblige :)

Bon soir!
-R